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Secret Personal Journal Entry #34
0May 16, 2004
Sunday, May 16, 2004 11:09 PM I know, I know� I haven�t written in over two months! I just kept putting it off, and then when I wanted to write, I decided to wait, because I would have to talk about everything that has happened since I last wrote�and then that time just got longer […]
Secret Personal Journal Entry #33
0March 7, 2004
Sunday, March 07, 2004 12:16 PM I skipped another month. I am horrible. I�ve had the weirdest month of my life, sort of.I�ve been really enjoying thinking about John. I guess I overdid it. Since last time I wrote, John drove me to my dad�s house and we did a lot together. I even felt […]
The day I met a boy and puked
0February 8, 2004
I’m sorry about skipping the last two months pretty much, but I don’t really feel like trying to think what all happened… While I was at work on Thursday, my dad called to let me know that he was fine with my being gay, but he said we had to talk to weekend while driving […]
How I came out to my parents
0February 4, 2004
Once again, I apologize deeply for the lack of journal-writing that has been becoming a habit of mine. The past two weeks have been amazing, and I really wish I had been writing in this more often. This week is my coming out week. The following is a letter that I am writing now and […]
I got my temps
0December 7, 2003
I’m getting real good at forgetting to write in this! I did think of it a few times, but it’s been busy at the store lately and there is a lot to do. I got my temps on Dec. 2, and I have so far driven an hour and 15 minutes. I am very bad […]
Who are we to judge?
0November 29, 2003
It just occurred to me that I haven’t written in this for a while. I am very, very sorry about this. Since last time I’ve written, I finished the classroom portion of Driver’s Ed. I got a 99 out of 100 on the final test, so I passed. Sarah Gomez is no longer with Carlos. […]
That’s just my luck
0November 10, 2003
I am feeling rather strange right now. Today was an average day for the most part. I got called to the associate principal’s office seven minutes before the end of the school day. I thought I was in trouble because that’s why people are usually called down there. Mr. Cappoferri just wanted to ask me […]
I’m paranoid that I will hit stuff
0November 9, 2003
Today was not too bad. I woke up around 9 and wrote my questions speech. I finished it by 1 or 2, but I didn’t work on it the whole time. I also did some other homework, but not much. I still have to read a chapter in my driver’s ed book and write another […]
I put everything off and got nothing done
0November 8, 2003
I’m so mad I didn’t write in this all week! I’ll just summarize the week to save time: Last Saturday morning’s sweater sale was crazy. I got to the store at quarter to nine, and there were already a whole bunch of people waiting to get in. I opened the doors and went in–and was […]
Sweater sales, Halloween and cross-dressing adventures
0November 1, 2003
I just got back from sorting sweaters at the store. Tomorrow is our sweater sale. I also went trick or treating tonight at Bark Lake with Chris W. I was a woman. I had lip stick, white blush, long red hair, a hand-bag, and boobs. I got tons of comments from everyone, especially men at […]
So much work, so little time
0October 31, 2003
I have to get ready to go to Dad’s house in a few minutes – I’ll take my computer along I guess.
Slit wrists and unknown intentions
0October 23, 2003
Sorry I didn’t write lately–it’s just been so busy–as usual. I haven’t watched TV in a long time. Oh well. I should be doing homework right now but I wanted to get an entry in before I put this off for too long. It’s not going well with Ryan. He slit his wrist three times […]
I’m not going to judge people any more
0October 19, 2003
Well, I have talked to Ryan some more. He’s as of now leaning toward not seeing me at all now that he’s with Jenny. He originally said he would be okay with doing stuff with me and being with Jenny simultaneously, but now apparently he has changed his mind.He is as indecisive about his sexuality […]
These feelings overwhelm me
0October 19, 2003
I completely forgot to write yesterday. I tried to get some reading done before I went to work at 5 yesterday, but I didn’t accomplish much. What’s new? The jackpot for the Wisconsin Lottery’s Powerball was 140 million. I bought 4 tickets, and didn’t win anything. I am happy to know, however, that nobody else […]
A video of his you-know-what
0October 17, 2003
Today was alright. I bowled a 162, 166, and 150 something. I’m still rather depressed in the privacy of my room. I’m happy that Ryan sent me a video of his you-know-what, as well as another picture of his face. He had to leave early because of parents and I think I made him mad […]
It all might just pass me by
0October 16, 2003
I need inspiration. I feel like I might very well be inspired, but when I try to draw from that inspiration and create poetry, it fails to impress my peers. Perhaps I should instead channel that energy into art, for visually I am inclined, and fear of acceptance and appreciation is not dependent on other […]
Lost opportunities
0October 15, 2003
I was doing alright today, but now I am really sad. I had CCD tonight, so I was online right when I got home and then for a few hours. Ryan was not on at all, and now that I’m back from CCD, he hasn’t been on the whole time. I just called him with […]
Secret Personal Journal Entry #15
0October 14, 2003
Today I did my speech! I did pretty well too, so I’m glad that it’s over. However, I did not turn in my story for science that I was supposed to do, and now I automatically loose 25 percent. Furthermore, I left the rubric and instructions at school today, so I don’t even think I’ll […]
Secret Personal Journal Entry #14
0October 13, 2003
Today was a very unhappy day. I learned of much homework that I should have done but didn’t, and I still have to do my speech. I am very behind in many things. I saw Ryan’s cock today, but virtually. He scanned himself when he had a boner. It was so adorable that he did […]